Septième Ciel

Sigh..

These last few days have been.. wonderful. Let me preface this by saying everything has taken place on the Internet so far, which is what I have been dreaming of for several years because that is how John and I described our feelings for each other when we first met. I have so missed our MSN chats, I've never had such a connection with someone, before or since John.

Last week, as I wrote about in a previous blog, he added me to MSN and we spent hours flirting back and forth, just like old times. In our very first conversation he told me that he isn't looking for a relationship, which rendered me speechless (a first!) and after a lull he added that he wouldn't "shy away from" a relationship should it happen on its own (aah redemption.) We have spoken almost every day since then, except this one, which explains why I am blogging.

I have been keeping my mouth shut (or fingers hovering) about my feelings for him, because I do not want to set myself up for heartache. Luckily he hasn't changed, and dropped hints about getting together. When nothing came of that, he flat out asked. I was over the moon! We didn't make any definite plans because of the distance between us, but agreed that it would happen.

Yesterday he flirted up a storm with me, told me how cute I am, and that he would be..thinking of me. I felt like a teenager, although this never happened for me when I was young.

The only drawback is that my car is acting like an old lady with hot flashes, and cannot be trusted to drive so far to see John. I'm not sure what this means for us until I can find someone who will give her affordable menopause medication, but for now I am quite happy with our back and forth flirt sessions.

I keep expecting the worst to come from this, as it did a couple years ago with another man, but I'm going to keep thinking positive and see what happens!

I will be continually updating as this is the best news I've had in years, and I could not be happier!